This morning was met with a TON of craziness that Tiffany allowed me to blather on about over the phone. Prior to that, I was having an OK morning that quickly escalated into #LentFail Forgive me if these quick takes are a little messy, haphazard or even snarky. It’s kinda where I’m at.
My husband is traveling this week. I usually don’t say anything for fear of someone “out there” finding out and stalking me. I have a highly irrational fear of being watched. Queue music by Rockwell This is why I will usually mention it when he’s on his way back – like today. Whenever he goes, stuff happens and I am usually the wearier for it. This morning was no exception. Let’s just say, protocol was followed, cops were waiting in the parking lot, and I responded as if I had a kilo of cocaine in my pockets. I’ve never seen the stuff in my life! I also have an unhealthy fear of police too. I act this way even when I’m being pulled over for speeding – which I’ve done only twice for fear of…well, you know. I don’t know where any of these unhealthy fears come from, and I guess that’s why they’re unhealthy.
When I’m scared, I don’t think straight, and when I don’t think straight, I say things, and when I say things under these intensely stressful conditions, they are usually swear words.
Yep, I gave up swearing for Lent. SO, what have I done to make up for this? Flogging myself with
eat all of the dark chocolate. Dark chocolate which I also gave up for Lent. So this #7QT, is appropriately titled #LentFail
I actually failed yesterday too and that’s when the
eating flogging began.
Yesterday was a day full of snark that could easily be summed up by my pin of the day
All this after reading a really smart article about the 7 negative people you should ignore. After reading it, I was thinking about those people in my life that fit numbers 3 and 4 (of which there are MANY ). In all of that thinking, I decided that some funny would cheer me up and this meme did just that.
Can you tell that I’m having a rough week? And shouldn’t it be rough? I mean it’s LENT!
In an attempt to cheer me up, someone that I am SUPER happy to call a friend, sent this song to me. And I thought, oh, how lovely. They know that music speaks to my soul and this would be just the thing, and a prayerful one at that, how I love to pray…hang on a minute. Did he really just say…
I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
See, I struggle with being pious and being, well, human. I don’t know if anyone else struggles with this, but I’ve written about this before. This certainly made me laugh a little bit – and it shocked me too – which is not easy to do. I’ve even gone to confession and had the priest say, now Cristina, you’re being too hard on yourself. Relax, you’re human. Quite right, Father. Quite right.
I have been keeping up with my Lenten reading and praying the scriptural rosary at night with my boys. I even added something (shocker!). I’ve always wanted the book, Divine Intimacy by Fr. Gabriel of St. Mary Magdalen O.C.D. It’s pricey, and I haven’t made the plunge to purchase. It’s not like there’s a preview, to whet the appetite, right? Or is there!!! Roman Catholic Spiritual Direction has received permission from Baronius Press to publish portions of it online over Lent. This means, I can preview it, for free and guess what? (Say, what?) It’s totally worth the money, not that I bought it, because HOLLA, I gave up buying books for Lent, too. In any case, if you haven’t heard about this, sign up to receive the reflections in your inbox. I am tweeting them too in support of this wonderfully exclusive goodie and partnership!
This morning, in my Lenten reading of Sacred Space for Lent 2014, I was posed with this scenario and question for today along with the readings:
Am I drawn either to pride or to despair?
This week, I am totally drawn to despair and I have to snap out of it. I will. I promise. When my husband isn’t around, I’m not around and I have to fix that.
So, today I am pretending it’s Sunday and will pretend that Sunday is a Lent day, because I have clearly failed. And yes, you can use that because I totally stole the suggestion from Tiffany this morning.
Have you already flubbed? Please don’t let me be the only one
that admits it. Tweet it, share it and tag it #LentFail so I can find it and feel better!
And just so you know, the original title of this post before my incident ridden morning, was FUN FRIDAY. On to the weekend!
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